Give me some opinion plz..

So...
i've been asking a few friends about reading articles in Eng..
and quite a num of them say they would not read articles in eng patiently..
Why?
because they either don't understand or lazy..
and most of them prefer to read in chinese..
and i'm just wondering..
Should i type my posts in chinese?
although my post is so boring that no one would read it?
Does it worth?
Please tell me ur opinion...
Thanks...

Xian Ren Wu Kan!!

Just then chatting with my fren...
suddenly he says....
u noe where xiao mona are??
wakaka...
monating is not small...
taller than me lor...
also bigger than me....XD
haha...
4get the reason liao...
Dunno why...
juz got the feeling to laugh aloud..
狂笑ing...
狂笑ing....
狂笑ing.....
狂笑ing......
wakakakakaka.....[回音....]
I'm crazy-ing.....
muahahahahaha......[回音....]

Thanks...

So tomorrow is my 14 years old birthday...
Today when i go read the comments at the chatbox there...
I found out that quite a lot of my dear friends wish me happy birthday..
So gandong xia..
Although i won't celebrate it...
or go out with my friends...
I feel that i've got many friends at present...

Thanks for ur blessing...
I wont forget it..XD
and its okay that you not at here...
and no need to give me present, K?vio vio...
I already happy with ur blessing...
Thanks My Dear Friends...
May God Bless...
Jesus Luv U!
Muacks~
XDDD

19/11 and 22/11

Tmr, thats 19/11, my sister is going to come back from malacca lor...got a little bit miss her...but i prefer the present she buy for me...XD Do not say that i am cold-blooded...at least i got miss her a bit...^^ Just wondering about what she will buy for me....hehe..and this sat...wakaka..at last, reach the time i am growing to 14 years old...while others such as qiqi vio wen xuan n alex already celebrate their birthday long ago...so good de, can celebrate at school...To say the truth, i quite 'xie mu' u people can celebrate with all ur friends together...anyway...this year got ppl remember my birthday ler..of course with the exception of my family...so gan dong...alex lor xuan lor they got remember....=) and the most unusual thing happen is one of my aunt is birth on the same day as me...and her daughter also...birth on the same date as my 'non li' birthday which is 20/10....its so qi guai....got two ppl who are my relatives who birth on the same day as me. My mum said...its rare that in relatives, got ppl who birth on the same day...so i guess i'm the lucky one..^^ hehe...so i'm going to wish myself Happy Birthday first....dun say me zhi lian...XD

Wakaka...

This morning gone to confirm the timetable for tuition next year.
Luckily..i still can change it..
so my timetable next year:
secondary 3--mon & thurs (noon)
science--tues (noon)
mathematic--thurs (night)
bahasa Makaysia--tues (night)
kind of relax..
although its quite busy for me..
everyone know that i'm lazy de lar....XD
so next year i'm in morning session..
no more lying in the bed..
no more time to waste..
got to got up early too..
and still don't know when to reach school...
haha...
i'm going to kacau xuan xuan next year...
want to kick her chair..when she is sleeping..XD
hehe..behaving like little child?

ermm...
2008 going to end...
now say about my dear friends..
long time din see them alrdy...
vio vio a...long time din see her 'hua ci' ler...
perhaps with the presence of alex??XD
xuan xuan...must sleep everyday at class....
dunno why the teachers seldom scold her ler...
next year must kacau her...hihi..
wen wen ler....loves to take pic..
'zhi pai da ren'...
qi qi..owes gek me when gt chance...==
never miss any chance..but tio gek by me also(which is seldom)
li min....quiet quiet de...ppl to lend hw from...XD
alex....like vio still dun wan admit...funny ppl
but sometimes quite....(duno hw to describe)
jie hua.....an annoying ppl to play with at backstage...
er..ponteng many times this year...
yaw fang...getting agresif towards year end...
says himself pretending to be good little boy in front of teachers...=.=
bernard...a little bit raw with him...quite fun at times...
peterson..owes talk bout $$...
kenneth...likes to creep silently behind u...
maybe waiting u to turn and be shocked...i'm shocked by him several times alrdy..
ruth...knows her better this year...loves anime very much..
dyona and cabrini...always laugh sok2 de with us...
jess and ricky....i still rmb their act when counting money...
"satu...dua...tiga..."
so funny....
gennieve and flora....owes sit together...and quite sok at times..
tommy, liao, lcn, fooyung...like to play chess everywhere...
michelle,yeekiong,linlin, leeping, ivy....5 good frens...
yuyi, azureen n arlixcya....three different kaum...the best example of perpaduan...XD
the two florence....when there are ppl find florence at our class...there will be ppl asking..fj or fa?
bahrain...a little girlish...sry yar...
hazwan...totally like haiwan...
laila....lose her at past three test...but finally win her at the last one...
roger n joshly...i only can speak their name without wrong after half year...paiseh...
n when distribute books, i just say which is roger or which is joshly...tio laugh by them..those two seldom separate...
davies....loud voice...XD

hahax...this is all members of 2A...
my opinion of them..
no offence..XD
2A FOREVER!

This holidays...

To say the truth..
this hols is the most boring hols i ever had...
and also the busiest hols...
thanks to our dear Mr ling tung kong...==
giving us tons of references books...

boring aaaaaaaa.....
have to stay at home everyday..
sleeps almost 9 hours a day...
becoming a pig now....
and what i do most everyday is eating...
fat fat ting....==
don't laugh at me when you see me...
i know my size...

anyway...
i grieving to post in chinese..
but my com hvn being reformat...
still sok sok de..
and also want to see u all..
too boring till can count my hairs lor...(like alex..XD)

but i've quite found a way to use up my precious time..
i'm going to go hui suo to do my homeworks...
better than at home...
i'll never finish those homeworks...
and also can play play there...
go get know of those primary six ppl...
'da hao guan xi' with them...XD
'fan lao huan tong'...
go to sort of join again the 'xiao liu cheng cuan xun lian'

think of my primary six...
sok sok de that time...
wake up alone at 5am or even 4am for two weeks...
and cant do anythings except sit there dreaming...
thinking of it now makes me feel like old...
and i also remember...
i have my birthday there...
maybe the most happy birthday till now...
although nobody celebrate with me...
but a pleasant feeling was with me all the time...
haha....

dun hiu me...
i'm sok now...
talking of past things....
'hu yan luan yu'

All i can say is....

Last night, i go out to have a dinner with my relatives...
But the real reason is...
TALK and EAT FISH!!!
walau a...
my mum and my aunties talk and talk about all things...
while my father and my uncles chit-chat about fish....==
hear till tiredzz....haih..
now..
back to the title...
the fish we ate..
is being caught by my father..
so big....got more than 10kg ba..i think..
but....
its so hard...
just like chicken..
and they did a nga thing..
ask a pair of scissors from the waitress
and CUT the fish...
btw...first time eat fish like that...==
and the other one...
even crazy..
cut using the knife!!!
haiz..
and.....
eat the fish like it was their enemy?
bcoz eat till no flesh at all....
i look at them till .......
can't find any words to describe them...
XDDDD
really funny seeing them fighting with the fish...XD
hahax....

人生的意義

人生的意義

歷世歷代以來，無數的學者、歷史學家、哲學家，窮其畢生的精力，想要了解人生及存在的意義。儘管人致力窺究其堂奧，人所能揭示的仍是非常有限。然而，聖經－神給人類最偉大的禮物，卻解開這個奧祕。

人的目的

神的話告訴我們，祂是那自有永有的一位。在已過的永遠裏，神就已經存在；到了一個時候，祂就決定要造人。神的心意是要這個人在地上，有祂的形像彰顯祂，並帶著祂的權柄代表祂。（創一26～28。）

這事相當有意義。在神造人之前，祂在這個宇宙中造了億萬的造物。祂創造了植物的生命、動物的生命，最後創造了最高的生命，就是人的生命。我們很容易了解，植物的被造是為著動物，而動物的被造是為著人。然而，我們卻不容易明白，人的被造是為著神的目的。

聖經創世記第一章就告訴我們，神造人與造萬物不同。祂是照著祂的形像造人。我們可以用手套來說明。在寒冬漫長的地區，大部分的人都習慣帶手套保暖。人的手不能裝進手帕裏，因為手帕沒有手的形像或形狀；但是手套有手的樣式和形狀，所以能彀盛裝手。手套是按手的形像造的，目的是為盛裝手。照樣，人的生命是按著神的形像造的，所以神能將祂自己作為神聖的生命，分賜到人的生命裏面，裝到人裏面。

人的被造

人的生命是最高的受造生命，在性質上比植物的生命和動物的生命，都要高超得多。在神的創造中，動物是照著牠們的種類被造的；所以，動物的生命不能盛裝或彰顯人的生命。然而，人是從神類造的，有能力和性能接受神那神聖的生命。在這一方面，人在神的一切造物中是獨特的。

所有的人類，不問種族或國籍，都是神的器皿。根據聖經，就是神的話，這個器皿有三部分：靈、魂和體。（帖前五23。）每個人都意識得到自己的身體。身體可摸，有形，有時間性，而且可供科學研究。如果我們去問化學教授說，『人體構成的成分是甚麼？』他會給我們看一張分析圖表，指出人體包含多少比例的水、氫、碳、及其他多種元素。就一個化學教授所研究的領域而言，毫無疑問，他是對的。然而，他的研究只限於人物質的部分，亦即組成泥土元素的成分。人自古就一直尋求解脫身體的囚牢；雖然人試圖延長肉身的生命，但至終都必須承認，身體是有其大限之期。因為神對人的目的，並不在人物質的身體上。

心理學家依照他們的觀點研究人類，認為除了身體以外，人還有個內裏隱藏的組成。人有心思，思考的機關；有情感，內心感受的機關，能彀愛、恨、愁、樂；人還有意志，作決定的機關。總之，人是一個活的、有思想、有情感，並可以作決定的實體。人內裏的『己』，就是心理的『己』，是真正的『自我』，而身體僅僅是外面的軀殼而已。英文中『精神醫學』（psychiatry）及『心理學』（psychology）的字根，源自希臘文的樸宿克（psuche），就是『魂』，這些都是研究魂的學問。

人類歷史近兩個世紀以來，目睹魂勢力的驚人興起，偉大的思想家如托爾斯泰、愛因斯坦、愛默生、杜斯妥也夫斯基等，對人類有相當大的貢獻。偉大的決策者，為人類政權和文化作出許多關鍵性的行動。毫無疑問，魂在過去幾十年，已歷登峰造極之境。然而，儘管人類有宏偉的成就，裏面的虛空感卻仍揮之不去。我們可以征服月球，但在我們裏面，仍有一片昏冥之域。我們可以研究世上偉大的哲學，卻仍無法找到攸關人類生存重大問題的答案。我們可以得著最高的學位，卻仍得不到安息和滿足。人的魂對於生命意義的探索，總是以挫敗了結。

在人的深處，有一個隱藏糢糊的器官，歷世歷代一直是個謎。這器官比魂更為深邃。供給生命的骨髓如何深藏於骨頭中，照樣，人的靈也深藏於魂中。人的靈專為盛裝神，被神充滿。這個最深的部分若未被充滿，人就永不得滿足。藉著心思，人只能思想並客觀的認識神；但藉著靈，人就能彀接觸神，盛裝神，並享受神。

人的悲劇－人的墮落

在人有分於生命樹之神的生命和性情之前，就被神的仇敵撒但引誘，因而受了敗壞，落在罪中。人的墮落是宇宙間最大的悲劇，至今我們仍深受其害。舉目所及，戰爭、不義、欺壓、疾病，天天環伺我們。

雖然人是照著神的形像造的，擁有合乎神性情的善良本質，如真、善、美、智、仁、勇等美德，但因著墮落，惡性進入人裏面，與善性相爭，叫人無法實行他良好的意願。聖經說，在人裏面，就是在人肉體之中，並沒有善。（羅七18。）人想要行善，卻行不出來。

因著人的墮落，撒但的化身－罪，進入人裏面，敗壞人的身體，使其成為肉體；玷污人的魂，使其成為己；並且殺死人的靈，使其無法接觸神。可見，罪乃是在三方面破壞人，叫人的靈死亡，叫人的心思背叛神，並叫人的身體犯罪。

在這種墮落的光景中，人宛如一部壞了的收音機，不但不能收播令人喜悅的樂音，反而時常發出惱人的噪音；又像一只漂亮的杯子，掉在泥巴裏，外形美好卻沾滿臭泥。雖然人自古就想盡一切辦法，想要逃脫罪，至終卻只發現行善、教育、道德、哲理，皆不能救人脫離罪。人已完全被撒但霸佔並控制，徹底無助，無法自拔。

神臨到人

神的兒子耶穌基督，是神的具體化身，二千年前來到人間。聖經說，『神格一切的豐滿，都有形有體的居住在基督裏面。』（西二9。）祂是完整的神，又是完全的人。祂比好人、偉人、聖人更高超；祂乃是神人。

神為著祂所揀選的人，竟成了時間有限的人。首先，祂成了肉身，降世為人，名叫耶穌，祂活出完全、無罪的生活；然後死在十字架上，以拯救罪人；接著祂又從死裏復活，在復活裏改變形狀，從肉體變成那靈。那靈就是賜生命的靈。（林前十五45。）

天上的父神是人無法接近的，所以祂在子耶穌基督裏成為人，住在人中間；但因子神是在人之血肉的樣式裏，仍無法進入人裏面。所以藉著子的死與復活，祂的形體從物質的變為屬靈的。基督作為那靈，意即成為人能吸入之屬靈的氣，就得以進入人裏面。這樣，完整的三一神─父、子、靈，就臨到了人。

現代人幾乎家家戶戶都用電；雖然電的來源可能在遠方的發電廠，電卻能藉著電線或電纜，臨及每一個家庭。子基督就是屬天的電線，從父神這神聖的發電廠而來，帶給我們這屬天電流的供應和能力。電流如何是行動的電，照樣，神的靈也如何是神自己對人的流動並臨及。換言之，那靈將神自己傳輸給我們，乃是三一神的『流』，給我們應用。

今天許多人的『收音機』不能作用，就因其沒有運用靈來『打開開關』。今天人不接受神，因他們裏面的接收器─人的靈─故障了。

人對神救贖及拯救的回應

我們若要接受並享受這位奇妙者，就必須悔改，把心轉向祂。悔改的意義就是轉向神。從前我們是背著神的；無論我們作甚麼，我們都是轉離神的。如今為著接受神，我們必須轉向祂，信入並接受祂。

基督徒的生活，是每日且終日與主一同歡躍的生活。清晨醒來，我們便可以藉著呼喊主，來到主面前；藉著在靈裏禱告、讀經，接觸神。一年三百六十五個早晨裏，我們天天都可以藉此有新的開始，新的往前。

不論你是學生、家庭主婦、或上班族，還是專業人士、勞工朋友、或工商界大老，這位已經成為賜生命之靈的救主，要藉著你向祂敞開心，打開靈，進到你裏面，作你的生命和生命的供應，使你的人生豐富且滿有意義。

No updates?!

Well...
as my computer got lots of problem..
and sometimes even restart itself..
i decided..
i will not be online so much..
until my computer be reformat..
so there will be no much updating till then..
maybe for one or two weeks...
and at the same time..
i want to do my homework as fast as possible...
and after finishing..
can go PLAY PLAY ...
XDDDDDDDD
ermm...
my story..
i think nobody understand now..
but i'll try to make it okay a little bit~
and just now discovered...
that some 1A kids got blog ler...
that's janice, audrey and faye...
quite surprise actually..
and their english...
is so hard to understand
because got mixed with chinese pinyin...==
bye~~^^

EPISODE 2

'Fir...Fir...quick! Wake up now.You've been sleeping all day. What's the matter with you?' Ally shooked her best friend shoulder clumsily.

After the lessons that day ended, Ally quickly waked Fir up. Although she was Fir best friend, but she still can't make up what's the reason Fir sleep so soundly today. So she decided to ask her as soon as the lessons end.

'Hmm...What's the time now?'asked Fir sleepily. She was just woken up by Ally's loud voice.

'What time now?! Now is time to go back home, Fir!' Ally screamed at her.

'Alright...alright. Don't be so angry, Ally. Let's go home now.' Fir comforted her.

So, Fir dragged her best friend, Ally who was furious with her and started their way home. On the way, Ally asked Fir what was bothering her.

'Fir, what's do you dreamt just now?'

'Huh? Nothing, i just dreamt about the novel i read last night.' answered Fir, trying to hide something.

'No, don't hide anything from me. I've been friend with you for such long time, i know that you are trying to hide something from me now.'

'Actually its nothing important. I am dreaming about the same thing this few days. And in that dream, i am a student of a magical school called Edinburgh in another world. And you are also there too...and...and we also have another friend, Eve. Its strange, right? To dream about a same dream all over for days.' say Fir.

'Edinburgh?Eve? Are you sure?' Ally suddenly asked seriously.

'Yea, i'm quite sure about it. Why do you asked like that?' Fir was puzzled by Ally's reaction.

'Its because i've been dreaming it too this few days.' answered Ally.

'What? You had the same dream with mine? What do you dream last night?' Fir said astonished.

'Yesterday, i dreamt about our best friend in Edinburgh, Eve being taken away by a man who called himself Sir Arnold. And we were left in a big but empty room.' replied Ally.

'Well, Ally, its absolutely the same dream i had just now. Don't you think that we had some mysterious connection between us?Or even with the mysterious world and Eve?' asked Fir.

'Maybe... but what is it?'

Then Fir and Ally walked home without another conversation. Each thinking of the curious dream they had together. When they were nearly home, Ally said 'Fir, as we dreamt the same thing now, can we interact with each other in the dream, asking whether we are the same people? If we can, then the dream must be quite true.'

Fir looked at her, 'Are you sure you want to do that? I've heard of people who do like that were shocked and never woke up again. You want to risk it?'

'Yes, i want to try it. I am sure that we will find out something we never know in the dream. I just had that kind of feeling.' said Ally.

'Alright, then we meet again in the dream tonight. Bye.' said Fir.

They parted and went back home.

But they don't know, what was waiting for them that night...

TO BE CONTINUED__________________________________

Does this seems okay?

EPISODE 1

'Eve! Where are you?'

'No..no..don't leave me here...'

Fir mumbled in her dream. Fir, is a perfectly normal person, sometimes a little bit silly, funny girl.

'Fir! What are you doing? Do you dare to risk some extra homeworks?' screamed a short, plumb woman beside Fir.

She, Professor Pomprey would never had anyone sleeping in her class. And Fir is the first one, that ever dare to risk it. But, that girl that was screamed by Professor Pomprey, seems do not be disturb at all and all people know, Professor Pomprey's sound is the second loudest in that school. And who had the loudest sound is the little girl, Ally who is also Fir best friend. And now, she looked at Professor Pomprey with such an innocent look, that would make every people fell into it. But anyway, this did not include Professor Pomprey. She already had too much of that to fell into that innocent look.

'Now, Ally... Don't start that again. I had enough of that this semester.' Professor Pomprey glare at Ally suspiciously and ready to dart away if she open her mouth.

'No, professor, i don't mean to do that again. I...I just want you to let go Fir. If not, maybe i would start in a second.' Ally replied with that innocent look again.

'Haih...' sighed Professor Pomprey. She had to let off Fir, just because...because Ally's threat to open her mouth.

Now, let me introduce:
> Fir
- a girl, sometimes silly, funny...
- had a mysterious family background
- had magic...even though she don't know herself
- a clever girl
- a genius in inventing new tricks

>Ally
- Fir's best friend
- also had magic but don't know anything about it
- has a loud voice that everyone scared when she screamed...
- clever in making innocent faces
- making use of Fir tricks frequently..

>Professor Pomprey
- doesn't know anything about Fir's cleverness
- think that Fir and Ally are silly little girl
- has the second loudest voice( the loudest is Ally)
- scared of Ally loud voice

TO BE CONTINUED____________________________

Suggestions for the title is badly need...
Emm...how's this opening? Okay mar?

After viewing ruth's blog...
i think maybe i give up my key...
too long and uninteresting..
start a new one..a proper one...
so...think first about the content..
Good Luck..

At last...

Today...
we gonna go to skul to take our report card...
haih...
poor prefects..
got to wake up sooooo early..
actually nvm de lar...
hehe..
when i reached there, it alrdy quite late..
although juz 6.30am
then we were ask to take one chair each...
all the way from bilik mesyuarat atas to astaka...
crazy ar...so far away..
and along the way...
got many ppl stare at us..
so paiseh ar..==
now...
after that..
we were ask to take one label each
i'm so unlucky today...
taken the form 2 most noisy class...(that's wat i thought after experiencing it..)
so....had to manage it also...
and when the assembly start...
its time to 'shou ku' ler...
hearing the headmaster to speech for so long time...
headache ar...
at last it finish..
then we had a short fun time..
shaking hands and say:' Rajin belajar yar...'
i say that to teacher too...^^
gt hit....XD
but we...poor prefects..
got to berbaris there..
nearly got sunburnt ba..
but after that we all got drinks..
haha...took from alvin...
emm.....
nth else...
today is so lazy..
juz use broken de eng to rite....XDDDDD
so....
bye bye...

blablablas...

2008 had come to quite an end..
What's following us is a lots of homeworks...
Now...
i've got 7 books to do..
and about 30 essays to write...
and 1 Bible and 3 books again...
been thinking about to go to do it at 'hui suo' with friend...
after reading the Bible...
we can start our works right away...
not need to waste time in front of computer or television...
Its a good idea..right?
Have to think seriously about it...
so i don't regret..=)
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As this year is coming to an end..
it also mean that class 2A/08 is going to pass...
and the members of 2A's maybe would be separated next year...
but hopefully we're still in class next year...
so that we can work together again..
in a peaceful class..
chiong together for the coming PMR next year..
Its going to be more fun next year...
if we all can co-operate together..
haha....
the teachers..
what a nice surprise they might receive.....
Anyway...
i just don't want the members of 2A now go to other classes...
Sweet memories we had this year...
Hope that our class would maintain next year....
haha...
nothing to say.....^^

Cool...

Yeah...
We success!!
After working together for few days..
thinking various ideas to make it more success..
we manage it..XD
Actually..
i feel that everyone will be downcast..
because we may not be in the same class next year..
haih..so pity..
just when we mixed around so well..
so peacefull in 2A...
while we start to know each other well...
but it seems that i'm wrong..
everyone seems so high..
or are they hiding their sadness?
anyway...
our small party is successful
its was really touching for us..
for all the members of 2A
its touching to hear our teachers saying..
'I'm happy and really touched..I never thought that you people would make this for us..'
' I am glad to have you for my students this year'
and such things...
Many of my classmates cried...
making me feel like crying too...
lack of tissue then...XD
then...
most of our teachers cried too..
the teacher who cry the most is Cikgu Nursiah...
'Saya rasa saya tidak akan tahan nanti...'she said at first.
and the advices she gave us..
its useful and couraging...^^
we also took many memorable pictures...
which we'll treasure forever...
never to forget class 2A 2008...

We're not geniuses, but we'll try our BEST...
this is 2A's slogan...
making us becoming more interest in our studyng and more hardworking(perhaps..)^^
to make 2A proud together...
Let's hope that we will maintain together next year...
as we really love being in one class now..
and i don't want people from 2B or other class enter our class...
its not that i look down at them...
but i don't want the members of 2A now part next year...
Wish us a happy holiday...
although there is tons of homeworks..^^

" WE'RE NOT GENIUSES, BUT WE'LL TRY OUR BEST. "
Jiayou together!!!XD

Never mind about it...

huh...

Don't know since when...
i've been hypnotizing myself..
saying to myself..
'Yenting...You are not studying for yourself neither by yourself..
You are studying for God's economy and you study with the presence of Lord Jesus in you..'
at first i get comfort from it...
but now..
i still remember my purpose of studying
but i cant help feeling downcast...
especially today...
when alex said to me..
'Haiya..my average is already 85% with my seni 65 marks...'
It really hurts me...
i know i am not as hardworking as him
nor have good brains like him...
but it still hurt to hear that sentence...
why?
i already try my best this time...
the first time i really study for exam
not playing around...
daydreaming...
not in front of com or tv...
if he said after last few exams..
i deserved it..
because i don't even study for them...
but this time..
after killing milions of my brain cell...
i feel that it was really a dreadful thing to hear...
many times already..
i am nearly to tears...
but somehow i refuse to cry in front of them...
i am so scare..
that one day i will fail to bear it all...
it was such a shame...
to be the lousiest among them...

The hopes they put on me...
its so high..
i feel so stress when i am with them
when they ask for my marks..
my average..
seems like they think that..
i am genius...
and will be the top every time...
and i...
i had to laugh happily? in front of them..
hiding all my feelings...
it was such a terrible feeling
to fail with high hopes on me
and not letting them know....
what is my feeling...
nobody ever want to know my feelings....
even her....
we're friends for such long time...
NO!!
i am not genius...
but i'll try my best...
Please don't put any hopes on me...
i am so much affected now...
i don't want to be like that anymore
study for other people to see...
not by my own intention...
not for God...
i really want to try
to study only for God..
not for myself
nor other people...
Just for GOD
but i think that is impossible...
with all of them putting hopes
high high hopes on me...
like i am a genius...
i really like to try it...
perhaps
one day i will archieve it...
but that one day
seems so far away from me...

i know that my post never had a main point...
too much...
its just a way to write out my feelings...
and please don't angry with what i say..
its just......

May God bless...

Results...

Today is another sad day for me...
I am still not very satisfied with my result...
Although its okay for other ppl..
haih..
why i never have any improvement..
in my bm or bi?
It even be lower than last time...
last time my bi got 91
and this time only 88
haih....
never mind now..
its going to past...
i am going to read those reference book during the holidays now...
and finish all the work teacher give...
so many ar...
do till faint...
=.=

Ehemm

That particular ppl who juz view my blog...
plz lar..
dun tell other ppl about my blog existence...
i noe u very good d..
Please lar...
Dun tell other ppl about its content..
especially them...
i really dun wan them see lar..
I got my own reason...

Disappointed...

=.=
Juz now i tell xiao wei i won't be updating my blog this week nor online
but it was so boring...
i broke my own promise to myself...
Haih..
this time exam...
i am so disappointed with my result..
now lets talk about sejarah....
i only score 43/60
while others all score 50++
so sad....
and math..
i am so careless...
even the teacher ask me..
'why u get so many wrong this time, u always can score well in your paper one..'
i feel so terrible at that moment...
feel like crying today...
why..
i already prepare well for my math...
and i cant score well then..
as for my sejarah..
i noe that i should do more exrcise..
but.........
but other paper quite okok d...
not so disappointed in those..
i'll never reach my target now..
and its still a problem to maintain my marks...
=.=

Useful Information!!!

Today my friend tell me 1 website--engkabang.net
It is a website that you can ask question from teachers that are members from many places...
You could ask many thing about your studies such as science, sejarah, geografi and so on...
To me, it appear to be quite useful...
bcoz i could ask for information there...
but i hvn know ways to post a question,
so if you ppl want to know just try urself...
and you will get replies from teachers about your question....
If you ppl want to share it with ur friends, you are welcome...
It is a good thing to share useful things with friends...

Phew...

Finally..
the exam is finished...
Suddenly i felt that no pressure at all
and feel so tired..
and i am quite disappointed with my geo result
only 86...so lousy..
even after getting our teacher's help
other sub also quite the same lar...
i really dun satisfied with what i done this exam...
Anyway it already passed......
And now i am facing a big big problem...
My com is somehow blocked by a programme name Data Execution Prevention(DEP)
And i had difficulties doing work..
and even have problem to online...
Does anyone com been blocked by DEP too?
If got, please inform me...
and tell me what should i do to unblocked? it ...
so 'shao xin'
after the final exam, i think of open com for long long time
but now
facing problem again....
really angry with the com now...
maybe if one day i really get crazy,
i would throw the com away!!!
Argh!!!
=(
bad mood!!!